Note: It's been over three months since I wrote in this blog. THAT is a sign of reduced stress, in all aspects of my life. Politics, job, family. I really need to set aside the time to write in here at least once a week. I will try to do a better job of that.
ONE YEAR ASSESSMENT
It's been one year since I left the Club. I am officially no longer a member of that club. I had one year to try and get my patch back without "re-prospecting." I am now not eligible for that opportunity.
I had a great talk with a former brother a few months ago. I was calling him to let him know how I felt about not being in the club. A bit melancholy, I was most upset with the fact that I had lost touch with so many men who I had called Brothers previously. He chuckled, then told me quite honestly that I was seen by more than a few as a "quitter." I had quit the club, for whatever reason, and the club that they hold so strongly to their hearts would never really accept quitters. To a certain extent, what that means is that brothers may hold up a former brother who has been "put out in good" with more respect that those who voluntarily turn their patches in.
I can understand that.
And I can live with that.
My former brother's honest remarks put me in my proper place in the MC world, and was totally refreshing to hear.
Since that conversation, I have pretty much washed my hands of the club when it comes to occupying my mind. To a certain extent, this post is the last I will write about the club. I imagine I will try to do some academic work on the biker lifestyle and its relationship to gender definitions (masculinity). Other than that, there will be no further reflections on my club life.
I have been riding freely and independently since mid-March this year. I love the freedom that comes with riding independently. I've had one good, long ride this year (to North Carolina in May to visit David), and I have at least two more planned before the start of the semester in August. I still have a vision of traveling to the West Coast on a ride that will probably take me away from home for at least three weeks, but that will have to wait until next year. I have one chopper rally on my calendar for September. I have no other long ride plans.
It was a good journey with many wonderful experiences. I have no regrets. In the end, it truly is "all good!"