Monday, May 12, 2014

And Just Like That....

I was just interviewed for the dream job....

I can't believe it. I guess I still have some gas in the tank. If this comes through, then I will be exactly where I want to be!

It's funny how those things work out the way they do.

It's ALL Good!!!

Friday, April 25, 2014

Depression is a rare but unwelcome acquaintence

Well, I've been dealing with a depression right now I haven't experienced since Katrina. I go through good days and bad days. It creates times when I don't want to do anything but lie down in bed, and then I bounce back and conjure up all my energy to focus on work and family.

I basically got fucked with my tenure. I didn't get tenure, and I was set up. Given my performance record, there is no way I should not have received tenure. But the committee was stacked against me and there was never any way I would receive an objective review of my work. As a former administrator, I had been on the "wrong side" with many of the tenure-review committee members, and those who should have supported me did not have enough weight when it came down to the final decision on my fate.

Academics are neither objective nor mature in their workplace dealings. I was hoping that this stop in my career would be different when it comes to academics in the workplace, but I was again proven wrong.

Losing tenure has caused my great depression.

I am not going to dwell on my condition here. I do know that the way I will get out of this funk is through reflection, some meditation, and lots of riding. Drinking does not help me when I'm in these downturns, so I am doing my best to stay off the bottle. But the one thing that will begin to help me get out of this funk is when I begin getting some bites on the job applications I've sent out over the past few weeks. I would be so happy to be out of this university before the beginning of the semester. With a new job, I would begin to feel a sense of work self-worth.

Wish me luck :)  It's All Good

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

And So The Adventure Begins

It has been almost two years since I rode my bike to New Orleans. I'm about one-hour behind my take-off time, but I'm ready to go now and hope to make that hour up on the road.  Tales from the road continue.  It's All Good!

Monday, March 10, 2014

Spring Break

This is the first spring break in three years that I have not brought students to New Orleans to do Alternative Spring Break. I really needed this Spring Break all to myself, and I intend to relax as much as I can with the family and with the bike.

This week's agenda includes taking Devin to the Lego shop in Austin, spending a few hours down on South Congress to enjoy what we can of SXSW, and then for me later this week to spend a day at SXSW on my own. Later this week I finally get to ride to New Orleans and spend a few days there with friends chilling out.

Looks like a wonderful Spring Break. It's All Good

Saturday, March 01, 2014

Missing Another Mardi Gras

It's funny how I "rationalize" reasons for not going to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. First, I say it's the money. No doubt, it costs over $200 in gas alone to get down there. Well, it's always about the money, really....  I've got places to stay, so I don't have to worry about that. But going to New Orleans anytime will cost me almost $500. That's lots of money during a time when we're trying to save money and pay off bills.

So, I'll live my Mardi Gras experience once again vicariously through my friends' instagrams, facebook posts, and other social media.

I will make it home next year. I know I will....

Its All Good!

Monday, February 24, 2014

On Retirement....

Well, I've been doing more than thinking about retirement. I'm planning on doing it by next year.  

Susan and I have started to take an inventory of what we can get rid of and what we can keep. Basically, we're keeping all the art and getting rid of most everything else. There will be a bounty of garage sales over the next many months. If you're in the area, watch for some good deals from our house.

I'm just tired of working. I have a great job, but the people I work for are, well, people I work for. I am not good with working "under" people--I understand this. I love the freedom that comes with my job, but even my job has limits to freedom and the control of my time. It has been a great ride, though, over the past nearly 20 years of my career. But, it's time to spend time with Devin and Susan.

What will we do? Well, we'll be moving for one thing. We'll be going to Tennessee to live close to Susan's mom. That won't be happening until sometime next year, but there's a good chance that Susan and Devin will head up there for the new school year, leaving me here to finish out my last year at the University.

Why now? Lots of small reasons, but the big one is my obsession with my impending doom. My father lived until he was 56. He had just retired from his highly stressful work and "enjoyed" his retirement for 9-months.  Then he died of a massive heart attack.  

I will be 56 next January....

I don't want to go out that way. I'm in good health, I anticipate I "could" work until I'm in my 70s or later, but I don't want to work anymore. I want to begin really enjoying myself, spending time with the family, and watching the world go round. I am so "over" trying to accomplish something for myself or for this world. I have my children who will pass on my legacy. I have all the students who have passed through my courses that I believe I've left with some lasting impression. That is all I can do. Now, it's time for me to do things just for myself.

I feel really good about this. 

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

An Early Spring Means....

I'm not getting my hopes up at all, but I'll take these last few days (and the forecast for the next 10 days) of wonderful, spring-like weather.

The real problem for me when the weather turns like this is that all I want to do is ride the motorcycle....

Where I live (Central Texas), there's a great ride waiting for you literally on every road you turn on. We have long but secluded roads in the hills that take you through some of the best areas of the state. I've been on quite a few and have discovered some by accident. Each road comes with the freedom and peacefulness I need these days as I grade my papers.

I am looking forward to the upcoming Spring Break. I'm hoping that it will include a very long ride back home to New Orleans. We will see.

It's All Good!